Un clavo saca al otro
pero qu tal si no quiero a otro?
o si pienso que ay otro pero no lo quiero admitir?

kindled fire

the past dwindles like the dying embers of a fire,
but the gust of memories brings it back to life

Ms. D

Odio

odio que no olvido
los dolores que me diste,

odio que me molesta,
las cosas malas echas,

odio el olvido,
la botada que me diste

pero odio que no te odio

Ms. D

la consciencia habla

Cuando tu corazón no te deja olvidar, que significa?
Que haces cuando lo único que quieres hacer es olvidar,
pero la mente no te deja?
quisiera borrar todo de la mente y comensar de nuevo
pero las lecciones del las experiencias antepasadas me ayudan en el viaje de la vida
Como voy a olvidar lo que me pesa cuando me ayuda alejarme me de los peligros.


Confundida,
Ms. D

Pesadillas

Ahora se porque se llaman pesadillas

No son cosas que te asustan

Son cosas que te pesan en la mente, en tu corazón, el la conciencia

Las pesadillas te persiguen afuera del sueño

No te dejan trabajar

Como un virus  en la menta

Las pesadillas te pesan la mente

Una dormiente,

Ms. D

life

I've struggled quite a bit. My quest to become a successful Latina in this society has not been easy. However, I am happy with what I have accomplished so far in life. There is only one aspect in my life that I have abandoned, or shall I say failed at, relationships.

You would think that as the generations progress the gender stereotypes in the Latino culture would change, not completely of course...but maybe a little.

Well I have had my ups and downs when it comes to relationships and they have mostly been because of the machista culture in the Latino society. Where males feel that must and are superior to their female partners and equality between them does not exist. Though many say that they want a partner equal to them, what I have noticed is that its not true equality. If a female earns more or is seen as too independent it makes some latinos feel that their masculinity if being threatened.

Just a thought.

Ms.D

ticker

The thumping has gone away
I touch but cannot feel

Ms.D

Why I made this blog.

I wanted to have a space where I can post work and thought up, but I am so scared of people not liking it that I stop myself. I have come to a conclusion, and that is that I am not going to give a shit what people think. I am going o write whatever is on my mind and I don't care who sees it. 

By stopping myself I'm stopping anything good from coming out and I'm tired of keeping everything in.

Ms.D

Corazon mudo

Mi corazón grita pero nadie la oye

Esta desesperada y no sabe que hacer

Mi corazón llora pero nadie la oye

Da todo el amor que tiene, pero no recibe nada

Mi corazón ya no pudo mas, no tiene nada más

Se esta muriendo, mi corazón, dio todo lo que tenia.

So sad.

...

I want to move even farther away, somewhere different where no one know my name. I want to start new away from all my thoughts. I want to sail away and drown my thoughts, erase the memories, erase the past. I want a new beginning, where I don't love and need no one. Alone in my little cave, painting pictures on my walls. I want to go far, far away. Where the wind can't even find me.

One

Mama,

I know you meant to hold my hand

I smelled your pillow late at night

When heavy eyes took me to another land

I pretended you were by my side

But all I wanted was to hold your hand